Hi all!
I hope everyone is finding themselves happy and healthy today! I'm dropping back in after a long time away to recommit myself to my quit. I am in the middle of a difficult time and feeling the urge. We are blessed and healthy, but just going through some things that have me thinking a little too much. I am a little over three weeks from having my second child. This pregnancy has been technically a very good one, although it has been difficult having a precious almost 3 year old boy as well. Just stressed to the max. I quit smoking the month before I found out I was pregnant (as with my first) and haven't touched one since. As my due date looms though, and the stress is building, I find myself in a weird place having to tell myself "NOOOO, no no no no, you will not start again after this precious baby is born. DON'T DO IT!" I'm having to tell myself that a lot and it is scaring me, because I can only imagine, while joyful, how stressful 2 children can be. I'm going to re commit myself to my quit. I know how much this community helped me in my first quit. Even thought I HATE that I slipped up and started smoking again for a while, I just DON't want to start again! I want to be healthy and happy for my babies and husband, and smoking just made me feel like a gross failure in every aspect of my life. Why would I go back to that?? What a powerful drug it is that 9 months later I am still thinking about it... Thanks for reading. 🙂
