I simply wanted the desire to quit smoking, 9/6/22, just for a couple days. Having had some minor oral surgery and the dr. telling me I would heal quicker if I quit smoking, but you might as well tell me to saddle up my rocketship to the moon, cos I ain't no quitter. I don't quit for nobody, nothing.....I smoke through bronchitis or pneumonia, cos I ain't no quitter. For reasons I can't explain, this time was different because I was disgusted with myself. I'm not weak, except when it came to my nicotine, my cigs, my crutch, my addiction. A strong person would set that nicotine aside and let their injury heal. That's the point when I gave it all over to God. Asking him to give me the desire to quit, for good. For the next days, I got educated about nicotine, watched videos online and just filled my brain with all the negatives (there are no positives) of smoking. I would never allow myself to research nicotine before, my addiction didn't want to hear bad news. For maybe 6 days I cut down to 3 cigs a day, set my quit day for 9/17/22. For some reason, I was convinced if I could get through 3 days with no nicotine, I was gonna make it. The first 2.5 days of quitting were so easy, peasy, breasy I knew I was good to go. Day 2.5 to about day 21, I wouldn't wish on anyone. It was mentally draining, but I pressed on, I had a goal and God had granted me the desire and he gave me 2.5 easy days, before I had to really do the work. I have always heard, "The best things in life, don't come easy". I still cannot belive I am not a smoker, but I AM NOT A SMOKER. I don't want or need that "thing" anymore. I have quit once before, for an extremely long time, and it took one single puff to get me readdicted. I don't take this quit for granted. I wasn't thankful in the beginning, it took me until day 22 to begin to appreciate my smokefree life. I felt somewhat guilty cos I thought I should be jumping up and down with gratitude cos I quit smoking, starting day one, but I don't think that is realistic, and that that comes in time. I am grateful to God and I thank him for bringing me this far.
