Okay, I'm having a hard time accepting this. The patch is giving me migraines. I never get headaches, and now I can't sleep and the whole back of my head is killing me. It hurt last night, I took 2 Advil and it didn't help, so I took a third. Took until 4:30am to fall asleep after I forced myself to turn out the lights at 2. And I woke up every two hours or so. The dreams were fun though. Today was alright at first but by 5pm I had another migraine, so I was starting to get suspicious about it. Took 2 migraine pills around 7:30, put a cold washcloth on my eyes and laid down in a dark quiet room, but eventually had to turn onto my side because the back of my head hurt so much. It got somewhat better but now, here I am at 2:40am wide awake with a new pounding headache all over again.
This is aggravating because I've really gotten a lot more on-board with the idea of the patch, which I didn't like the idea of at first. I feel like this community really has been helping me get my head in the game and do whatever it takes to get the job done, including the patch. I like not having the option to smoke, if only because I could really use that right now. Because even with the patch I just get that urge to smoke sometimes. But I had to take it off tonight so that I can eventually be able to get some sleep!
So I'm nervous about tomorrow. Not sure if I'll put it on in the morning or not. For now, I'm planning to and if that plan turns out to not be an option because of these headaches, then I have lozenges I can use. Or I can just bite the bullet like so many of you have done and just deal with this so I can get past the worst of it and get used to life without smoking. "Like dealing with the flu," someone wrote on my page, and it's true, to a certain degree I have and will continue to have to just deal with this until the worst is over. Keep me in your thoughts, Plan A: keep the patch on at all times, is not working out. So now, on to Plan B: just don't smoke for God's sakes. Wish me luck, there's might come a point where I may need it.
For now, I pledge to write a blog entry when I'm going through any major struggle. And I pledge to not smoke. I can do this.
