Nicodemon's running out of lies to tell me. That "just one" lie doesn't work on me. No matter how much I'm taunted, I know that one puff = one pack a day! I thought the "just one" lie was the strongest of all - and maybe earlier in my quit it was. Now nicodemon has to get clever! "Oh, C'mon! Smoke one just for the heck of it!" Well, I have to admit that sometimes it sounds like a good excuse. It sounds enjoyable even. Just for the heck of it? What a concept! It seems I always needed an excuse before. I was bored...I lit up. I was angry...I lit up. I was happy...I lit up. It goes on and on. I'm smoking because________________(fill in the blank!). Any excuse would do. "Just for the heck of it". Sounds exciting, rebellious...delicious and fun. Enter common sense - the real me - How stupid can I be?!!? It takes me back to my childhood. Did I ever smoke just to smoke? To enjoy it? Even as a child, when I was practicing to become an addict, before I even knew how to inhale, I had a "reason" to smoke. Something would trigger me, I'd steal a cigarette from my mom's pack and find some matches and run off in the bushes to smoke that trigger away. I'll show you!!! Just for the heck of it? No thanks nicodemon. NO thanks.
