Hello Ex friends. It's been several years since I have formally been seen on this site. I've been in the shadows reading and praying. I set my quit date many times over the last two years, but never followed through. Two years ago my mother had a stroke. It rocked my family's world to say the least. We brought her up from Tennessee to New York and at that time I was not smoking. I had 3 months sobriety. I cannot for the life of me explain why I started again as looking at my mother was like looking into my future. She was a smoker her whole life. Several weeks ago while visiting her I knew I had to quit. My cough is so bad that I have to go into another room and cough into a towel to dull the sound. I am only 57 and sound like my mother who is 81. It's a no brainer that a stroke will be my fate. This past weekend I decided that November 1st would be my quit (forever). I was with my mom when I decided to make sure this happened as when I was looking at her my heart broke. Not just for her, but for my husband and adult children who would be heart broken looking at me in years to come. I am happy to be back and look forward to my journey. It's wonderful to come out of the shadows.
