Okay, went to work today. A little scared. I was okay driving because I never smoke in my car. Got to work and told my assistant Barb. She looked at me a little strange (she's a non smoker) and when i made full eye contact with her, she "pretended" to be impressed. She said "that's great!" I then got on the phone to talk to a girlfriend who hasn't smoked in 10 years. She was as bad as Barb. I then called John who works in my other store. He is a seriously heavy smoker. I told him. He let out a scream...."Good JOB! That is awesome! Good for you!" Non smokers just don't get it. Even ex smokers who haven't smoked in a LOOONNNG time refuse to admit they ever smoked. So annoying.
I ate all day. A sales rep brought us in a large bag of Cherry Nibs. I hate 1/2 the bag. I ate my baggie full of sunflower seeds. I hate the 2 chocolate brownies, the banana. I drank green tea. I ate my goldfish crackers. and then moved on to some more licorice. I tried the carrot sticks, but I thought I was going to choke. I came home and my husband had made a frozen pizza for a snack, and I ended up eating 4 pieces. I am so full of junk, and my body is craving healthy food. Maybe I will broil some cod in lots of lemon butter. I feel like a serious mental case.
This day, Day three has been the toughest so far. I almost lit a nice long butt that is in an ashtray in the garage.
I told him about my splurging on food, and he told me to stop or I would blow up like a blimp. I just wanted to smoke, smoke, smoke at that point. How come I eat really healthy when I smoke? but I couldn't get enough junk in me today.
