Well it's another failure. Nerves are shot. Had to take valium. Cleaned. Which I'll probably flare up tomorrow from all the work I did. It's a lupus thing. If I can't do it I'm gonna need a person to talk to. My head n heart r in the right place, but I can't do it. I did it in the past. What is wrong with me? I want to quit so bad. I'm going thru too much.
