Hi everyone,,,
I talked to my sister on the phone for quite some time today. She told me that she isn't going to be getting anymore chemo or radiation. I asked her why, and she said the doctor told her that they've done all that they can do.
I had the feelings, but to hear it out loud was a real shocker. I cannot even imagine how she must be feeling. I wished I had been there so I could give her lots of hugs.
She was in pretty good spirits regardless,,I think she thought she had to be for me. She is so worried about how certain people will handle this news. She told me she was proud of me for taking the news so well, better than she thought I would. I told her that it hasn't sunk in yet, so don't be proud yet. She said she wasn't going to tell me until I got up there, but then felt I had a right to know now. I am busting my butt here so I can leave hopefully a little sooner to get up there with her.
She says she wants to go camping and enjoy her life now. I know she has great memories of us all at our family camp, I think she wants to relive some of the good memories.
She told my other sister today, in her positive way, that at least she gets to be the first one of us to see our Dad. 😞
My other sister was crying her heart out when she told me this,,it's so hard for everyone.
Lung cancer is painful for the person who has it, but it's also painful for the rest of us who loves that person. I'm not ready to let my sister go, and I hope she hangs in there 'til I get up there.
I am feeling really, deeply, sad tonight. My heart hurts and my eyes too. Yes, I did cry,,alone. I am trying to be strong for her. I want to see her smile when I get there.
I will post again, when I can!
Thank you all for your support and prayers,,it means everything to me!
Love & Hugs!
Diane 😞
