I am down to my last level of patches (7 mg) as of yesterday. And boy did it make a difference- I got about 3 hours of sleep! But I am very happy here at 4 am, as I have no urge or desire to smoke! I will be nicotine-free very soon and haven't smoked for 35 days, which beats my last record of 1 month. I am very grateful and have been pledging often and coming here for support. I am beginning to draw strength from my long-term alcohol recovery, as I see such great correlation between it and my recovery from smoking. I am praying daily to be free from desires or cravings for cigarettes, and am thinking to myself- often aloud- I don't do that anymore! All this is well and good, but I also realize, as many of the elders say, that I am not immune to cigarettes- relapse is but a puff away, and I know for certain that I am truly an addict. I am protecting my quit by not getting near them, just as I do as much as possible with alcohol. I will continue to keep my guard up. NML is no joke, as I learned when I threw away my 1 month quit on day 30- after I boasted in a blog how well I was doing! It scares me, and so I will be vigilant. No more Day 1, just Day Won. Today. Not tomorrow, not next week, not next year. I just have today. So I am here blogging and reading and messaging. I pledge here again- no smoking today, no matter what! A shout out to all of you here at EX for your help and support- I wouldn't have made it this far without you! I am blessed to have such wonderful, caring people to support me anytime I need it. Thank you.
