Having a lot of trouble

[JakeTrev]

It's kind of funny.  I have gone from about 50 cigs a day down to 12-13.  Yet I cannot get below that number.  Wait, that's not true.  Yesterday I only did 10.  But now I am asking myself why people cannot just let me be.  With end stage COPD what kind of a life do I have to look forward to.  I know that's silly.  I have saved  so much money already.  But that's no reason to quit smoking.  Why does everyone make you feel guilty.   There seem to be many on here who have already quit.  Did you go through the same thing?  How do you overcome those feelings? 

My quit date is 8 days away and I don't know if I can make it. 

Ok, I'm sorry.  I sometimes just feel like I'm losing!

Thanks for listening.