I guess it's hard to obliterate the mental aspect of being a smoker for years.
I have been delusional thinking that the "want" would eventually pass too. Perhaps that's why I haven't been successful in the past to permanently quit smoking.
Hopefully this is the last time I go back to smoking. I am so very, very grateful that I have no health issues due to years of smoking.
Still, one day at a time. Now on day 15. I haven't exposed myself to the triggers that prompted me to smoke in the past. Hopefully, I can gradually be exposed to the atmospheres and tolerate it. It not, I know I have to immediately walk away.
To combat my mood swings, I have found www.happify.com and www.my-diary.com to help me focus on positive learning and energy.
Success my friends!!