Seems like it has been the longest day ever today. I have been trying to get my husband to buy me cigarettes, but he won't let me. I got so oeverwhelmed today I got dizzy from anxiety. I feel so depressed today I don't know what to do with myself. Cigarettes are on my mind all the time. I just wish I could have one smoke. But then I realize why I am quitting. I wouldn't want to go through this all over again. I hope when my husband and son leave for a week that I will be alright. I am forgetting things all the time. It is like I am not here today. I think about exersizing, but I remember the last time I did...the patch was coming off. I took a long nap today. It felt good,except that I felt like crap when I woke up with depression and that urge. I don't think I can take this anymore, but I am just riding it out. My husband says on my 3rd day, if I still want one that I can. I don't know if I will because if I can get through the 3rd day then I did it! I miss it though. It made me feel good...or at least I think it did. Actually I remember that the last time I smoked, it didn't make me feel any better, it just gave me a wheeze and a cough. Please give me the strenght to get through this...