I was an idiot, and jumped off the quit horse. Yep, no one made me do it, I chose to puff away again. Now I really feel like I have got to stop fooling myself and work this thing.
When I started again, just a week ago, we were in a stressful period, which will continue but which really got to me that night. So I bought a pack, and in that week, have gone thru two packs total. I am fighting not to buy another. The stress doesn't go away, but the smoking should. I was toying with the idea of waiting until Wednesday, but what will be different then?? Not much. So why not just make today rededication day??? I have over a month "clean," why not start working on the next months NOW???
I am scared about it. I have blown it before, and I don't want to blow it again. I do want to quit. And I want to quit for good. But I am thinking each day is it's own reward, and that is the way I am going to have to look at it.
For me setting a quit time anywhere beyond today, now, and here would be an excuse. Why not today? Why not now? Why not here? Can't think of a real or a good reason. So here we go again. Another quit. Gonna do it.
