Again, I say…this hasn’t been too bad. In the big scheme of things, I’ve done much harder than this…however I still don’t always feel like a REAL Non-smoker….I mean, sometimes I feel like I’m just playing one on TV...and there’s going to be a really stupid commercial coming on any second now…
I’ve been staying at the office more and getting a bunch of work done….amazing how much I can do when I’m not distracted by smoking. I don’t have to come home from work at lunch time if I don’t want to….I can enjoy having a working lunch….none of that crazy LUNCH HOUR SMOKING ROUTINE…you know, you had one………..
Had a little irritability mid-week, after I was off the patches for a couple of days…but that’s better. Been a tad bit more emotional the last couple of days…but that could just be who I am now that I’m not stuffing my feelings by sucking toxic waste…what a pitiful coping mechanism smoking is…I’ll show them..I’ll kill me…very slowly….
I was having problems with fatigue and indecision…but again…better.
I did having a speaking gig two nights ago, that went well….but I had a pretty good sized crave driving home…this was followed by a drinking/smoking dream…so I won’t be doing that again until I have some more time into my quit…I’m thinking like 6 months or more….
My spouse is still smoking and I’m ok with it, for now. I don’t have to see it and the bit of smoke I smell on her person, gives me gratitude that I no longer smell like that. She lets me read some blogs to her from time to time…and she likes the funny antics of the elders…so I feel like, in due time, she’ll be joining me on this journey as well.
So…40 days under my belt. I’m feeling much better than I did, say, at 4 days. I’m glad that I found this site. Without the support here, the prep work that I did and continuous working of a quit plan…I’d be smoking. I can honestly say, I’ve not had an urge to go buy, borrow or steal cigarettes at anytime during this quit. That amazes me….can’t smoke ‘em if I don’t have ‘em… duh…
Well, dear Ex’ers, have a wonderful smoke free day…
Be Blessed,
