I slipped..... I allowed the emails from the ex.... my boyfriend being out of town and a very large brandy to take my quit. I took one puff... it was this disgusting stale cigar/cigarette thing the ex left in the garage from who knows when. I was buzzed on brandy... feeling sorry for myself and I just went for it... I lit it... inhaled once... stubbed it out and wondered what the heck I was thinking . I have no explanation, other than too much brandy and a pity party. Now Im sitting here in the middle of the night wondering what the heck happened... why and what am I going to do to keep it from happening again....and the very worst part ...as if having to tell all of you isnt bad enough... I have to look into my childrens eyes tomorrow and come clean to them.
