Hi Happy Friday! I had to go out today. I needed to go out today, staying inside hasn't worked yet. So I did it. But I found out that the usual places I go make me have urges. Like when I wait for the bus up at the shopping center I have a "special place" that I wait drink coffee and smoke. All the people from the restrauant come join me for a break. It's like their break room. I really missed going over there today but I didn't dare. Last time as soon as I went there I was bummin a smoke - just one! Today I steered clear of that area. Also, when I went to the docs I have a 20 minute window of opportunity to smoke really fast before I go in. But today I just waited inside. When I came out of the grocery store I had the strongest urge! I guess shopping is a trigger like eating is real strong. Tonight a friend is supposed to stop in but I think I need to not see him for awhile. He always brings me ciggarettes and has for years. He is my co-dependant! I call him and whine when I'm out! So now I have to not see him for a while until I get some time in. Tonight I plan on coloring! I'm enjoying breathing. I feel good about myself!
it's 2 days and I'm glad I made it today hope tomorrow is good too. thanks friends!