My body does not want me to smoke, my head trips do -- it is not that I will smoke but I am going through and emotional wilderness today - found a bunch of my ex husbands shoes/boots just left - like he died - but he is alive and it was emotional baggage that came up as I checked some parts of the house that I need to clean to get it sold - and its facing my thoughts and looking at them and just letting them go - that is the part that wants to numb with nic..... And I know I would get numb. I am tired of being numb and a victim..... I am breathing and alive and healthy and glad to be on the planet - just some shards of arrested development coming up today. Thank you all for listening - thankfully I thought to post here and not got to the market for cigs........Just dont put them in your mouth - and I know its a This Too shall pass moment!
