Today is 105 days since I quit. This is roughly around how much time I had last time I had quit for a significant period when I gave into temptation and smoked that one cigarette—which didn’t taste good, give me that “ah” feeling or even enjoy—I journaled about it and wrote that it made my lungs feel terrible, gave me an unpleasant over stimulated feeling, and made me feel very disappointed in myself. That led to sporadically smoking and quitting for another 8 months or so. I never went back to my 1/2-1 pack a day habit during that time, but I never really quit for long either. Last night I had a dream I was smoking and woke up with a morning craving—something that hasn’t happened in a long time. I will take this as a message and remain especially vigilant.
