Death Makes me prioritize my thoughts and to ask myself some questions
We received news last night that my sister in love Sue died yesterday morning
Sue was an X smoker and because she had to have brain surgery to remove cancerous tumors then she followed all the treatments etc and then it came back so she did everything the doctor told her to and with other diseases blood pressure cholesterol diabetes arthritis old age falling down and sores from diabetes on her legs and feet and also brain cancer she ended up at home with hubby taking care and nurses visits etc until hubby could no longer take care of his wife Sue
He chose a nursing home that also had hospice available so as not to be shuffled here and there
She had three surgeries for bedsores her hubby said we're very deep and the last surgery the doctor told Tom it wouldn't be long Sue suffered for a lot of years 6 years Ward remembers Sue dealing with the surgery for tumors on the brain and then another 2 years in hospice
Sue death makes me think of my mom and Ward's sister Judy who died of lung cancer from nicotine then all the deaths in our family and I think of my death unknown and my hubby death unknown and WHO will be first me or him
We loving laugh and say me first lol
Humor sees us through the reality of Death
We know death will come for us and NOT once did I think of coping with my drug nicotine instead I lifted Sue hubby Tom and their 4 adult children and all the families in prayer
Death makes me take MY own inventory having all my ducks in a row all legal paperwork and cremation done so my adult children will not have to pay for anything only by God's grace is MY belief and His tender mercies new every morning for ME
Death makes me prayer for the next suffering nicotine peoples and their families too
I am grateful Sue is no longer suffering and I appreciate all those who read this and thank you becomeanX for this support group to stay NOPE one death at a time for ME
I have been coming here since October 2010 and try to come in His love and service to help the next suffering nicotine peoples
Please tak what helps and let go of the rest to be helpful is MY only aim
Thank you everyone for teaching me to nope nope nope just like y'all just for today