Yesterday was a good day. Cravings were low, mood was a bit better, a little more energy, less symptoms and a lot better sleep. I am still struggling with the mood a little. It was better but still had moments of grumpiness. I know I need to remember, when I have those moments, I am overly sensitive but it will get better with time.
During the stressful moments, I utilized deep breathing and played some solitaire and Sudoku. I found that when I am trying to concentrate on a puzzle, my mind doesn’t have time to stress. It was difficult at first to get my full attention on the first puzzle but I ended up working a few of them.
Speaking of my mind, I am still having ‘brain fog’. It’s driving me nuts! I am typically on point and can remember things easily. Currently, that is so not the case! I know that will improve with time but I feel so dumb when I can’t remember the simplest of things. Thank goodness for the calendar on my phone, without it I would be so lost! Ah well, this too shall pass! 🙂
I am also drinking tons of water. It really does help with the cravings and helps keep me full. I don’t feel like I am snacking as much as last week and definitely not as much as my previous attempts to quit. I am eating a lot of cinnamon jolly ranchers, though. But that’s more because I LOVE them than because of my quit.
Now that I have more energy, I would like to start walking. Finding time, and with the weather not really cooperating, it’s hard to get started. I’m a bit of a dork, I love the Pokemon Go game. There is a small lake here in town that has a trail around it. My hubby and I love to go out there and walk around, looking at nature and of course, catching Pokemon. We went a lot during the summer but my breathing, or lack thereof, kept us from being able to walk completely around it. We had to stop a lot and let me rest. I am hoping that my breathing will improve enough, and the weather cooperate, that we can get out there and walk the entire trail soon. I am truly looking forward to that!
All in all, I feel better each day. I am still excited about giving up this addiction. I honestly feel like this is it, this is my time to achieve freedom. I am not delusional. I know I still have a long road ahead of me. I know there will be difficult times ahead. But I have a great support system that I am utilizing that as much as I can and this time, I truly, honestly, desperately want to quit. I will succeed.
Much love, thanks and prayers to you all for your support, kindness and advice! I can’t stress enough how much you all have helped me! Thank you!
