I am just at the beginning of my 7th day of my quit.
A couple days ago, I kinda got irritated with some of the blogs that were all warm and fuzzy, and positive. It made me mad that I wasn't feeling that way, and well, I was thinking I must even be failing to do the quit the right way!! Since I am just 7 days in, I don't know what else to expect that is going to jump out at me. But it WAS rough, it IS rough. The first day was okay because it was an adventure and heck, anyone can do anything for one day! but the next 3 days I gritted my teeth, I was grumpy, I thought of 100 ways I could smoke AND quit at the same time. I don't know that I did any of the distractions, I was too miserable to do them! I did drink lots of water though, because my mouth had to do something.
Why didn't I give in and smoke? well, for me it was my need to feel good about me for this victory, to know that I could set myself a goal and reach it. Sort of like a combo marathon and triathalon. Why didn't I give up and have that cig I craved? Because I don't want to be a big ole fat loser. I'm just saying my story. I need this win. I know that as I continue forward as an EX, my self esteem will grow.
We all have similar reasons for the quit. For me, all those play a part, but my ultimate reason is my emotional reason. Well, a series of reasons: I want to feel like I am in control of one aspect of my life. I want to feel good about myself. I want something that I am proud of. And so far I am feeling pretty darn proud of myself!!
TODAY: just 7 days in and as I walked in the door to work, I realized that I had not thought about having a cigarette during the whole 20 minute drive in! I hadn't even had to fight the crave! That was a special gift for today!
