Hi Ex-ers!
Today is day 62 according to the quit calendar. According to the wall calendar, I became an EX smoker 2 months ago today. I'm very proud of myself no matter how its measured!
I still have moments when it feels like I quit a long time ago and then I think it wasn't that long at all. And, the craziest things make me think about a cigarette. This evening I drove across a mountain that made my ears pop. I opened my mouth to even the pressure in my ears and....poof...I thought about smoking! So weird - I never smoked to relieve ear-popping.
An odd observation....I'm noticing cigarette smoke smell on people I have never seen smoke. It feels weird. People I know smoke have a strong odor, even their kids smell like smoke. As a smoker, I knew sometimes smokers had very, very strong odors. I would not let myself acknowledge just how badly it permeates everything. Another observation, another co-worker has a very strong odor - not smoking, just odor. I don't understand why either. It seems like she has the resources to shower. I don't know, its very confusing to me. I think smoking kept my sense of smell numb and I never recognized these odors before.
Overall, the craves are minor and I get through most of the day without the thought of smoking (or even a crave). Sometimes, I just remember the things I did to smoke and the places I found to smoke. I feel like I just need to make new memories, let time take away some of the old and just simply relearn life without the Nicodemon. I strongly admire traditions and history in general. I have to be sure I don't start romancing the cig with nostalgia. "I don't do that anymore!" and "N.O.P.E".
Thanks to all the support on this site, I have made it thus far, and with all your support in the future, I'm sure I am going to keep on going! Thanks to everyone who makes this site so great. For those coming behind me....If I can do it, so can you!
