Day 40. Felt sort of sad today. Wishing I could go back to living my old life. Without caring about my health or the future. It was like ugh wish I could still not care.
I ate my feelings just a little. Not the best coping mechanism I know atleast it was low cal ice cream. Didn’t vape. Didn’t smoke.
Could be pmsing too. Who knows.
I made it to day 40 and is what it is. I am happy to be here. It just feels a bit bittersweet. I am still doing it!