Well, it's day 38 and I still haven't stepped down to step 2 of the patches, mainly because of monetary issues and that step 2 package was $10 more than what I had to spend. So... heard that I'm supposed to be getting some funds in from my ex husband's income tax, so I'll do it when the cash flow is better.
Memorial Day weekend was great! Hung out with the boyfriend and friends, ate some yummy brisket and watched the kiddos swim in what we like to call "The Babysitter" (aka 26' oval swimming pool). Got a little bit of smoke inhalation from the campfire, and still hacking up the flegm. Yuck!
I have been craving alot. Trying my best to curb the cravings. Found myself turning up the radio in my car this morning to jam out rather than wanting to light up. It helped!
I have noticed something that I was afraid of, I'm gaining a little bit of weight. I guess my attempt to curb my cravings has been offset by the stuffing of yummy goodies into my mouth. So I've decided that I am going to go grocery shopping this weekend and get goodies that are good for me. No more bags of chips, donuts, bottled green tea (that has more sugar than a can of soda I've heard), no more sodas, lots of water and going to begin taking green tea supplements instead of drinking it. I read that's the best way to get it into your body healthily.
On another note, I'm stressing pretty badly right now. My doctor has found that I am HPV HIGH RISK and wants to do a colposcopy. He says the insurance I'm on doesn't cover the procedure and that I need to get it done sooner than later in case there is a cancer there. Well, sir, that $834 you are wanting to charge me isn't in my budget. Plus, I'm really close to being eligible for the company insurance instead of the state insurance I am currently on. Once I get that, we're full speed ahead on this! But until then, I don't want to take the risk of there being something there and then it being a "pre-existing" to the insurance company when I get it. Then I'll be up a creek without a paddle.
So friends, that's my life at the moment. No man's land is attempting to get me, but I'm trying to fight back as best as I can. I appreciate everyone's support in my QUIT! ❤️
