Day 18

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Day 18 has been weird and tough. Didn't get much sleep because of crazy schedule so I was pretty weak and tired all day which makes it tough. I didn't give in but you know it's like the weight gets even heavier. I walked through the gauntlet today. Had to go to the liquor store and there were 3 people standing outside smoking, there were “discount” cigs right next to the cash register, and then when I walked outside there were another two people standing with the first 3 smoking. I didn't really feel like I was about to cave in, it was more like I got really tense and tight and had a really hard time breathing and acting normal. It was like being in a dark ally and having 5 giant muggers walking toward me. It was like “oh crap, what do I do now?”

But alas it is the end of day 18 and day 20 is even closer! I am really looking forward to day 20 and day 30! Thanks everyone!