OK, I am pretty much done feeling sorry for myself. Now I am getting pissed. Now I am trying to choose not to smoke because I am tired of this nonsense. I am choosing not to smoke because I am choosing not to go through this ever again. I am choosing not to smoke because I am choosing to be free and being tied to this addiction and letting this be mast over me is making me angry. I am in control of my life not some stupid drug. I am in control of my decisions not some stupid drug. I decide what goes in my body and lungs not a drug that is bent on destroying me. For 11 days and over 11 hours I have for the first time in over 15 years decided that I wasn't going to be controlled by this drug anymore. For the first time in over 15 years I have decided my fate not some drug. My fate is my choice, My fate is my choice, MY FATE IS MY CHOICE not my addiction's!
