I have had one cigarette since I stopped smoking. I was not able to finish the whole thing, and I was doing it to make a point. A bad point but none the less a point. After that I ave not had another smoke. It is almost a year now and because of this change I have been making other changes. Doing this, (not smoking) has enabled me to reinvent myself to something different. Not only have I quit smoking, but I have changed religious beliefs, and have begun to look at my outward appearance. I have lost 48 lbs. another 230 lbs to go but it is a start. Changing your lifestyle is difficult when you don't know or are not ready to change or except what it is you want changed. I have began to know just what I want and how to get it. I have noticed that contrary to what I wanted to believe, people are prejudice against fat people. I have notice that even family members do sly things that they want to believe is common courtesy. But it is condescending. I will chronicle from here on out my experiences with people. I want to make it known the experience of an overweight person trying to be better to do better and be healthier, not skinny not thin, but better. Not because It is what other people want but it is the only thing that society will react to in a positive way. I have so many societal negatives, I am fat, brown, male, dread locks and physically sick. I also have a new baby who just turned 1 a few days ago. As of right now I wear who I am on the outside, which prevents most people from getting in to understand who I am for real. This strain is becoming something that affecting my perspectives on my personal relationships. I have begun to notice who loves me for me and those who are ashamed of what I look like. I no longer smoke, but gained weight because of the quit, and now I am changing more of the outside. Stay tuned for the updates... I am changing a lot of things, what else have you changed since you quit smoking? I would like to know, we can share story's. What do you say?
