Hi everyone. Well I made it back home from my Dad’s and a nice and quiet but very stressful Christmas (yeah I know those don’t seem like compatible terms!) Dad‘s dementia is getting slowly worse and he’s also very depressed because his wife of 8 years is divorcing him, on paper anyway, because he really doesn’t have a penny to his name and she doesn’t want to be responsible for or lose everything because of his financial issues. There’s a long story behind it that I won’t get into, but I really don’t blame her.
I guess the important thing is that as stressful as it was, I never had the urge to smoke, not even a small crave. I also realized when I got back that I had only chewed one piece of nicotine gum the whole time I was there, so I guess it’s also time to dump that and stick with my spearmint gum! I am under a lot of stress right now because it was clear that I am soon going to be responsible for my Dad if he becomes too much for his wife to handle. She says he can continue to live there as long as she can handle him, but said to me “When it becomes too much, I will call you to come pick him up.“ I am in no way prepared for this so I need to start doing some research and planning. I have a feeling it is going to be a very stressful year ahead of me.
What I want to say to all those newbies that are just starting their quits as well as those who are away is down the road, that just because you hit a mountain of stress, it DOES NOT MEAN YOU NEED TO SMOKE‼️ I only have 96 days under my belt, but I know that this is not going to bring me to smoke. Not as long as I stick close to EX and my friends here that support me! And I will! I have a feeling I will be here for a very long time because I am nowhere near not needing the support of my EX friends! I am going to borrow one of @MarilynH memes which really says it all!
All my best to all of you who have been quit for many years and are here to support those of us in need, to those of you who are on your journey of quitting like I am! I love you all!❤️❤️🤗🤗
Tracy
