Any Suggestions?

[mare5]

Prior to this 3 week quit, I was torturing myself by smoking then not smoking. I had the warped belief that I could smoke one , then next thing I know , I was back to my addictive habits. I decided to get off the roller coaster .So, here's the dilema ~ I'm not willing to avoid spending time with a close friend that smokes. When I get together with her, it's always been coffee & cigarettes. She'll give a WTG when I quit. The facts are that she will continue to smoke in her car with myself & her children, says  ~ I have too much stress to quit,  Maybe  this isn't the right time for you to quit, You can get on your own band wagon, I'm gonna smoke. I feel good about not smoking, but after coming home, I want  to cry cuz I want to smoke ~ I think,  I'll always be a smoker. I need to stop fighting it. I have fallen in this trap over & over.Any remarks will be appreciated.