Deda here, middle of the night feeling like I need my EX people, my EX smokers EX nicotine consumers EX …
This really is a great place. Reading other people’s tsuris posts, whether from smoking, from life without smoking, or from life unrelated to smoking but experienced by people who have come to this community to gain some validation of the difficulties involved in nicotine cessation and discovered a whole world of info and community they never knew existed!
This week,
a friend died Sunday no cigs Day 20
funeral Monday no cigs (very difficult) Day 21
attempts at and difficulty with self-expression via post signature in EX on Sunday and Monday in spite of admin assist No cigs, but on my mind
Chat with old friend re quit, no cigs …and remembered why we stopped chatting years ago, no cigs, very hard
PMD appt Monday before leaving area for the funeral, to hopefully get medical speech about why my blood sugar was so low on Day 1 or 2 (to bolster the information received here), and to assure me that I’m not diabetic or to have my hand held if I am, and to get some kind of breathing assessment post quit, since my pmd is a pulmonologist. MD behaved oddly, very disappointing after 1.5hr wait.
Still unable to personalize something in EX, problems with new-for-me laptop and ditto phone, getting tired of being disappointed and upset
Tuesday, very very disappointing blood test results, very upsetting Day 22 no cigs
Went to meet with landscaper for a large-ish community garden I’ve been volunteered to create based on my ability to arrange cut flowers. 🙄 Disappointing again, becoming more upset, go to the supermarket to spend money on food instead of cigarettes, apparently attempting to replace the 20lbs lost very recently.
another lost-in-the-past friend called to ask me to come fly out to her and be in her motorhome trailer for a week, we could hang out, we could talk. She still smokes.
Cooked, ate, finally got online. Saw Trish’s bad day, and everyone’s comments, and want to say
thank you EXcommunity
for reminding me
that we all have lives
that we all have our own personal hopes and disappointments
that this is a place where we can share a little of those things with each other, or with a blank page plus our imagination
because we have something in common:
the understanding that we need each other to be our advocates with and for ourselves and each other
because we all have gone through or are going through or will go through
something very similar, to wit, life without nicotine
we are helping each other to swim and not to drown
deda
