Well, who'd a thunk I'd be here today!?! I count my victories only one day at a time. I wake up and say "just for today, I will not smoke. From what I've read and responded to, I'm officially in NML. It's not a great place to be but certainly a LOT BETTER than 5 or 6 weeks ago. I was doing a bit of heavy cleaning today and wiping up nicotine stained stuff in my house. HOW GROSS! Smoke on my windows, on the shelves, everywhere. I told myself I would paint over every room! But I have to wait for my reward. No smoke has passed through my doors although I don't think it's fair that my husband still smokes a cigar outside. I've always smelled it a mile away and always thought it was disgusting (still do) but isn't that what I did? How disgusting for everyone around me or after I'd gone outside to have a smoke and came back in. It's nice to know that I can go anywhere, be with people who do not smoke, not ache to get outside (it's getting really cold here) and not have my clothes or hair smell. But I will never get overconfident; I'm not where I want to be yet so I'll plug along. My longest quit ever was 4 months so I have to continue to be wary. Well, that's it for me today. I try to get here as often as I can but not always time.
