well I have reach the nml's road at 36 days and when I went to a store where they were stocking the shelves with cigarettes and the nickdemon visit and said you need to smoke and I remember I don't smoke anymore, so I didn't buy the pack. I however I've been having a tough week, my grandson Is going to have get eeg and mri test, and visiting all kinds of Dr.s to see why is he so far behind in his speech; since I babysitte him 8 hrs a day , five days a week, I feel responsible, yet I have to reminde myself that developmental delays have nothing to do with how much you try to teach or not, but a neurological problem or maybe a ENT problem. I still want the ciggs but, I ask myself what good the nicotene and smoke is going to do my grandson. I have made a committen to myself to stop smoking. Not One Puff Ever. and there's never one cig.
I have come to long to go backwards, Keep going forward and be happy to not be a slave to the smokes,
