I have been on this site many times. Everytime I think I can commit to quit. I have tried cold turkey and with a timer I always make it 22.5 hours and relapse. I have quit some hard drugs and I still can't seem to commit. I don't know what to do. I have a bunch of gum and one pack of cigarettes. I have set my quit date for the end of this month. In August it will be 16 years that I have smoked. I am tired of letting myself down. I have a rash kind of thing on my hands. The dermatologist called it something I can't pronounce and took a biopsy. He said if it is what he thinks it is it is either caused by prediabetes, diabetes or smoking. It is an autoimmune disease which means it will come back. Autoimmune diseases run in my family. I had a great aunt who had Lupus, and my mom has sarcoidosis. My hands are getting better with a steroid creme. I am happy about that but even though I know that my smoking has caused it because I am neither pre or diabetic, I still can't seem to quit. So I'm going to take it day by day minute by minute and I am going to beat this. Wish me luck I'm going to need it.
