It has been a long time since I posted. I am still smoke-free. I rarely think of smoking. I am almost done with graduate school. I have one semester left. I thought that writing papers would be a big trigger. It wasn't. I have been stressed, but I didn't think of smoking to deal with the stress. Instead, I have been in therapy working on my responses to anxiety. I feel that I am getting healthier overall. Although I have not been visiting the site regularly, I am still willing to reach out if I have the urges to smoke. From my many relapses in the past, I realize that my addiction to nicotine is not going away. I am blessed, just for today, not to be struggling with it. But it can return. Happy holidays everyone! On to 2021.
