I am happy to say my quit clock says 126 days since I quit, and I have managed to hang on and hang in.
At the same time I feel like I have been wandering in the wilderness of no man's land these past days and weeks, wanting 'that thing' that smoking used to do for me and thinking more often of smoking.
I have given my notice in my job of 13 years, needing to make a break from the current environment and start something new. It is an uncertain time. I am not leaving for my dream job, I am leaving for something I can do for awhile while I sort things out. It is hard to explain after all this time, all I can say is I was not happy and it was causing issues and it's time.
So I'm hanging in there but having a rough time, it will probably not get easier in the short term.
One thing I have been hanging onto during this time is that I quit smoking and feel good about that accomplishment. I won't smoke and I'll stay quit. I know smoking won't make anything better, but it will make things worse.
Thanks for listening - hang in there everyone!
