Giulia Thanks, I will stay in touch. Strangely enough, the only trigger I face (after reading alot on this and other sites) is being alone. I NEVER even think about smoking unless it has something to do with an opportunity to be alone, whether by creating it or having the opportunity providing itself to me. fortunately my wife is now wise to all of it, and a five minute trip to get some milk at the dollar store is now suspect, so she goes alone or with me everywhere she can. I havent worked for over a year but I should be going back within two weeks. Everyday will be gutwrenching for her no matter what I say. It is uesless. If my wife is a moot point then so is our marriage. I can't accept that. But that is another issue related to this site's purpose but not driven by it. In other words, regaining trust is for a therapist to deal with, not you guys. If I can just quit, then your support for that problem will be much appreciated.
