Liana5 Hi Liana. Believe me, I know how tough this is to do. Just keep reminding yourself that you are stronger than those things. It may help. I am doing ok, but fight those strong urges consistently. I was so glad to hear from you. You can do this. We will do it together with some help from our friends here. Keep busy. It helps me. And hang in there. It will get better. I tell myself this too will pass each time I get the urge. Then I get busy. Yesterday was hard because my friend of 55 years wound up in the hospital and a judge and her sister both dies within 2 days of each other. I was close to them both. I didn't smoke though. Amazing! Good luck today. You can do it!!