First of all, I'm sorry I haven't been writing. I haven't been doing much of anything. My depression has set in again. It hit me right after the cancer surgery and I didn't realize that's what it was. In addition to the cancer, my depression meds have stopped working and just don't work like they used to. I also lost one of my best friends a couple months ago, and that was really hard. I am going off one of my depression meds now slowly. I wish I didn't have to be on any medications. Before I found out I was depressed, I self-medicated with other things like alcohol and drugs. Now I don't drink or have any cravings for drugs. I'm glad I got help.
As for the smoking, it will be 2 years in November I quit. I still chew the gum, but not as much. I hope once I get on my new medication I will stop chewing the gum.
I have an appointment with a new psychiatrist on Halloween. I just hate going through the medicine change. I have to go without medication for a week. It's really tough and then try working on top of that! But I can do it. I've done it before. And I'm working for a wonderful lady right now. To refresh your memory, I'm a caregiver, and I work for a very wealthy woman in Winsor, California. She is very ill, so I help her about six hours a day. She is the lady that I stayed with when I had my radiation--she is like my second Mother. Very sweet! I have known her for 5 years now and worked for her most of that time.
I'm having another eye surgery in December. Very minor. There are a few complications that have started to accure. My eye doesn't completely close all the way and waters constantly--they want to stop this. I also have a stitch that is sticking out and they have clipped it numerous times, it won't heal. They will take care of that too. They are going to tighten my eye up on each end and give it a skin graph (make it close all the way). It's just a minor surgery. I'll be in and out in an hour. Recovery is only a few days.
All of you take care, I promise to stay in touch.
Love,
katie Bockelman
