Dealing with life on life's terms have to be the most challenging part of my quit but I'm proud to say I'm doing it! My dog died, my son's doctors are testing my patience (I'm praying for better news when they call back) my headaches just won't quit and my heaters decided to fail me and I hate being cold lol I got 3 heaters out of 4 fixed so that's a plus 😃 nevertheless I didn't smoke and I won't smoke! Last time I really thought about it was with aiden's dr visit. Instead, I took my breaths, sang along to the radio, drunk iced coffee, and texted my special quit friend. Tonight's my first time using my gum in a few days. I no longer fear becoming addicted to it. I see now that I can make it without it but I do stay guarded with it for now. I had some pretty strong craves today shocked the heck outta me! I delayed the gum and rode the craves until tonight when I used my gum. I'm very confident and proud of this quit. I try not to pay attention to the number of days I checked my quit plan every few days or so and be surprised at how far I've gotten. When EX text me "have you smoked in the passed 7 days even a puff? Yes or No" it feel marvelous to text back NOPE! Those of you who are struggling as a slippery quitter I'm here to tell you it does get easier. Try not to think so much about smoking or not smoking use your tools as a new life not as a "because I quit smoking" I hope I'm making sense here. Drink plenty of water find another beverage that make you feel good mine is sweet tea and when the craves come sip, color, read, laugh but don't fight them. I learned today that they go away quicker if you don't acknowledge them. I simply told myself I'll use my gum later and left the thought alone I forgot it even came shortly after. So there's hope and a beautiful life outside of smoking. When you become your own friend you'll realize sickerettes never really was your friend!
