Who knew a simple trip for grocery shopping could be such a revelation!
My friend telephoned early today to basically winge about life and thats fine coz thats what we do, but she rang before i had had breakfast and talked for ages.
Eager to get out today to feed my new addiction, i figured i would be ok without breakfast as I had a list of what was needed and would be home quickly to have brunch!!
The journey to the store took longer than expected as i had to keep stopping and taking detours to satisfy my new addiction. I have been bitten by the Pokemon GO bug!!! Originally the plan was this would keep me company during my walks and give me an incentitive to walk even further, so all good up until now.
Finally arriving at the store, Out of the blue in the middle of an isle for no reason what so ever i had a massive overwhelming urge to cry, the lump in my throat getting bigger and bigger and the tears welling up. I managed to hold it back until i got to the checkout and the very lovely checkout lady who asked me if i was ok? Oh dear, that was it and so the tears started.
I explained that she should just ignore me as i had stopped smoking and this was now normal and she shared that she had been stopped for 18 months and understood completely how i felt and reassured me that it does get better and easier. She commented about the good food choices of fruit and veggies i was buying and we talked about not losing weight when she then shared that she has lost 5 1/2 stone since stopping smoking through sensible eating alone as she cant walk very far.
4 1/ 2 hours after setting off, i arrived back home very hungry, very thirsty and in awe of a very lovely lady who took pity on me today.
So my lesson today is not to let myself get hungry as that triggers my emotions and that its ok to open up sometimes to others and arent there some very amazing people out there, all fighting their own internal battles but ready to offer a hug to a stranger.
And as for the pokemon? I need to manage this addiction before it gets way out of control like my others 🙂
Have a great day today everyone and stay strong
