As the title reads, I have struggled with staying QUIT. I first quit in June of 2014. I stayed tobacco free for eight months. A none smoking friend came for a four day visit and we attended an event where smoking was allowed. As I went to use the men's room I noticed so may butts that were just extinguished. Most of them looked almost unsmoked. Yes..... I picked one up and borrowed a light. WAIT....there's more.
as I was sneaking a smoke I sat down and saw a cigarette box. It was just inches from where I was sitting. I picked it up expecting it to be empty. No, it was nearly a full pack. I shoved it in my socks, and old Navy habit, and so it began. I hid them in my bathroom as I knew my friend would call me out if I smoked again.
Imfinished the pack and once again quit. Amazingly I already felt out of breath. I was 67 yrs old. Since then I have quit many times. I get tricked because I feel better so quickly I rationalize that just a few won't hurt.
Pit doesn't take many for me to feel the shortness in breath so I get scared and quit again. It feels so good when I'm not smoking. I have energy and can do most anything without getting breathless. What the hell is going on ?? Am I weak? Am I not working through the pain of abstainence from nicotine?
