day before yesterday i got a new level of smokemare...I mean i had them before but this one was so real that it took two days to realize that this didnt happen....iI dreamt that i got up and got a cigarette lit it and went to sit on the front steps of my porch to smoke it... my son walked up and said "what the heck you dont smoke."... the i looked at him and then i said "what the f**k.. I dont give a f**k...I been quit 2 years and if i want one i;ll smoke it the damn thing"...what made me realize this wasa smoke mare is that I dont talk lilke that....I cleaned up my speech a long time ago ...HAHA...but it was so real.. right down to the shoes right up to the spider webs on the rafters....
wow i thought i had gotten through this...
izzy still smoke free 693 days
