I set my divorce date from cigarettes to coincide with the entry of decree of the dissolution of my marriage. I'm not celebrating either one ... I loved them both. Hopefully it will be easier to say goodbye to them together. I have two wonderful, young children for whom to live and grow old, and between payments to my wife and my attorneys, I really can't justify the cost of smoking anyway, (not that I ever could.)
I'm two days into this now. The severe cravings are beginning to subside a bit, though I still have a longing in my chest that I describe as lunger pains, i.e. my lungs feel like they want a drag. Lots of deep breaths that feel unfulfilling and plenty of anxiety. I didn't visit this site until after my quit date, so I didn't do much of the preparatory excercises.
I would love to find support on this site as my social network is limited and most of my colleagues don't even know I smoke, (life long closet smoker.) My quit date was August 30th, two days ago, though I actually smoked my last cigarette the evening of August 29th. So far, so good, though my evil mind is already telling me, "you see, you've gone two whole days now without a cigarette. You can quit whenever you want. So why now? Why not have a cigarette? You know you want one ... and now that you know you can quit, you can have one!"
Best of luck to all the rest of you out there trying.
