a good day overall. was busy at work but im grateful that i'm no longer a smoker bc i have more energy and am not sneaking off to smoke whenever i think i can get away with it.
funny, i wanted coffee bad and was hungry and they had some food in the break room. i didn't take my break until late in my shift today. but about halfway through my shift i snuck off to get both and as soon as i was dishing up some pasta salad i got a page telling me to call the manager. the manager said dont take your break yet bc someone else is on break. i felt like i was on a tether!
i got angry and snapped at my wife a couple time in the past 23 hrs. i felt embarrassed and angry about the first one. once i accepted that i was in denial about having been a jerk and apologized i felt relieved. the second little argument we were both being stupid and insecure and we just needed a half hr of space.
i felt uncomfortable earlier having a discussion about some family member's next door neighbor that is taking advantage of some people in the neighborhood. nothing illegal but certainly very ethically wrong. i started getting aggravated and felt overwhelmed talking about it. had to do some thought challenging bc the weirdness triggered some nonensical thoughts in my head and i had to address some halt issues. bottom line. relationships not based on love = stranger danger.
im grateful that we bought one of these pet Eureka vaccum cleaners from walmart. i'm pretty impressed for an 80 dollar vaccum how well it is working. i'm glad to see the color of our carpet.
i'm happy that after i help get the mrs off to work in the morning i can go back to sleep for a little bit. i can sleep in!
2m i really want to have it be a day where i say what i mean and mean what i say. also, today i was reminded that two days ago i told my wife that i would vaccum the upstairs one day ago and i didn't. i dont recall blowing it off. i think i thought of it first thing in the morning but by the time i got home and the nephews were hear i had forgot. its not a big deal but i'm embarrassed and disappointed bc i want to be able to have what i say trusted.
