It's amazing how fantastic I feel now that I'm not inhaling that poison in to my lungs every day. How on Earth, as a relatively intelligent person, did I ever convince myself breathing smoke directly in to my body was okay? It's actually scary that our minds can be so deceptive - we fool ourselves and we make excuses. I know I did. I was ashamed of myself and yet I continued to smoke. I felt sick, tired and I really wanted to quit, but I didn't - or I would stop for a few days, then I'd make an excuse to start up again. "School is really stressful right now," "Work is really busy right now," "My boyfriend and I aren't getting along," "The holidays are so hectic," "I will after this pack," "I will if you will." It's never ending - but this time, made a choice and that choice was there are no more excuses. I decided that the moment I quit, my life was going to change for the better and everything I do from that point forward was going to be affected - for the better. I truly feel that not smoking will help me in all aspects of my life. I already feel healthier. I have so much more energy. My asthma has improved and I'm proud of myself - not ashamed. Thank you to everyone on this site for just being here and sharing your experiences as well. So far you all have been wonderful help and I wish the best to everyone!
