I've decided to begin to write about how I'm feeling after each cigarette before I quit, how I'm feeling during my first few days after I quit and thereafter.
I just had a cigarette because I'm "feeling blue." I am under extreme stress right now after within the span of one week having my car repossessed and being let go from a job that I loved dearly. My job gave me a true sense of purpose. I have had other nursing positions that were gratifying, but this was my dream job. I didn't lose it because of my addiction to nicotine, but because of other addictions.
Anyway, the cigarette I just smoked did NOT make me feel any better. It just made me feel tired, nauseous and made a headache I have already, worse. I just feel gross after smoking it and now I want to lay down. Its the middle of the day and I have othe things I should be taking care of. I just feel so defeated and unmotivated.
