I sit here today in a funk, thinking about how we are going to have our rent and Christmas this year, and I went back and read all my blog from the first entry, and here I am on my 71st smoke free day already and my birthday will mark my 3rd smoke-free month (on 12-21st).
I am extremely proud of myself but am still struggling with my stupid deppression and anxiety and trying my dangdest to show love and support to all of you on your quits and relapses and I haven't really been checking in like I used to but wanted you all to know that my quit is stilll going strong despite how weak I am feeling.
So, with all that being said...you are all in my thoughts and prayers and I am sending love and friendship out to all my readers and friends and ex-family. My love to you all. I am saddened to hear all my other friends who continue to smoke and are getting and staying sick and I am still not sick. Now that is not to say that I won't get sick, but it is kinda nice to be breathing so well still despite the weather getting colder and others around me getting and staying sick. I am enjoying my quit and the fact that I continue to stay smoke-free as my circumstances around me seem to worsen.
I have been kindly been reminded by my sister in Christ (Thank you Anna I genuinely love you) that I need to continue to keep my faith and head up because I still count and I am a precious child of God and I must pass that on to all of you and I am going to do everything to pull myself up and out of my funk that I feel like I am stuck in. Keep in touch, send some love if you wish, and I will catch you all on the upside of this frown and soon you will all be seeing me smile again soon. I hope.
Thank you guys, just being here, is very reassuring!
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