NEVER, NEVER ASK WHAT ELSE CAN GO WRONG!
I went to feed the feral cat and I was already having some significant chest pain and shoulder pain and then I fell in the yard because it was so slippery. I am fairly sure that I cracked at least one rib and no I will not go to the hospital…not yet anyways. We cancelled any dinner plans; all I want to do is sleep. I could not breathe for hours…I could not take a deep breath and I was completely unable to lie down without crying out in pain. I have applied moist heat, taken medication, and slept and there is significant improvement. I CAN feel the rib move when I attempt to take a deep breath, not good for someone with COPD. I am about to shower and I am trying very hard not to make things harder for my husband…I know he is grieving but he is grieving his stuff and I cannot relate to that no matter how hard I try, I cannot do it. I do need to not make him angrier; I also need him to get the smoky stuff out of here. My daughter and granddaughter are leaving in the morning, they do not feel as though they can help anymore and they have a ten hour drive to get home. That will send me into an emotional tailspin but I will survive. I really do need to get down on my knees and pray for this anger to be taken from me, it is SOOOO not me and it is not who I want to be.
I love each and every one of you…with all of my heart; you cannot possibly know how much you mean to me or how supported I have felt knowing you are there.
With love and gratitude, please enjoy your Holiday. XOXO
Ellen
