We need to pick up bags and bags of stuff at the house and hope to God that all of our helpers did not put stuff in garbage that was NOT garbage.
My oldest daughter and my granddaughter will be here tonight, it will. I have cried so much that I do not recognize myself in the mirror. I tried to sleep last night but first my husband turned into chatty cathy and then the dreaded snoring started. I may as well try to sleep on a tractor. He is sleeping now, snoring away. He can hardly walk, at least I can walk, my shoulder is a different story, my left arm will not allow me to raise it more than a couple of inches but I got my weights out, I think my Shakeweight’s shaking days might be over and now I need to find a used bike. We are trying to dry out what pictures are left and we might have a place to stay in the country taking care of five cats who lost their person a while ago. They are skittish but I have been assured they will relax. It is a ways out of town but it might be a really good thing. The owners just want us to help with utilities when we can. My future daughter in law is going to take me to the store so I can get some jeans that fit and some other things…I believe that my shoes all melted. We are also going to soak things outside and then take them to the Laundromat, everything smells so horrible. My poor hands look like they are going to fall off between the redness from being dry and the swelling that makes me look like my thumbs are drumsticks. It is 71 degrees here today…supposed to snow Wednesday…weather changes and stress are giving me a run for my money. Someone just called to say they are dropping dinner off at my son’s place at 5:00. I want to share a piece of information with everyone here…IF you have valuables and books, etc on shelving units, do NOT put them on the top shelf, while it seems to make more sense to preserve them there, the things on top shelves were destroyed and are unrecognizable…some of the items on the bottom shelves and lower drawers of dressers may survive with lots of TLC and cleaning.
Your thoughts and prayers and love are with me…I do feel them and for those of you who believe in visitations from those who have passed, I CLEARLY saw Poe walk toward me when Mike and I were talking…Poe is the black cat who is my avatar. She always wanted to be with us when we were talking. The vision was not long lasting but it brought me comfort and no, I was not sleeping or drinking or taking drugs. Now I need to see my gray cat…who slept on my head every night and pulled a barrette out of my hair. I miss them so much. I KNOW it will get better but I do not know when. My heart hurts so much.
I have not spoken with my youngest yet, she told her sister that she cannot hear my voice yet and besides, her phone is broken and she is still on “vacation” in Bali. I need to get moving…have tons of laundry to do to at least TRY to save some clothes.
Your prayers and love are with me, I feel them.
Love, Ellen
