As I am nearning the end of my second set of seasons, I very seldom think of smoking anymore. If it enters my brain, I can easily push it right out again..After 692 days, I still enjoy the smell of a burning cigarette and if I pass a group outside a restaurant, I find myself walking a little slower, just to get a smell. This morning I was cleaning and I went to put the clorox cleanup away when I thought will this clean grout.. Big mistake !! You can not just clean one tile, once you start you are committed.. I have porcelain tile in my kitchen, that runs into my breakfast area and then to a laundry room and then a bathroom.. That is a helllva lot of grout. So as I am sitting on my butt, toothbrush in one hand clorox cleanup in the other when my poor pitiful addicted brain says to me"when I get past the dishwasher,I'll stop and have a cigarette !! Stopped me in my tracks and I said out loud "YOU ARE GONNA HAVE A WHAT ? Where did that come from ??? My brain was trying to make me think of what I uses to call my task accomplished cigarette. A reward cigarette. Am I going to smoke, NO , but it reminded me how strong this addiction is and I can never let my guard down. So G, I have another Day Won, Not Day One
keep calm and carry on
Wendy
12/31/12
